Sunday, November 21, 2010

Our Surprise

Dear Glory,

We just found out that you were actually a girl. Mommy is a little upset with the doctor whom I was under her care, as I could have found this out 2 months ago. I've been calling you a he for 8 weeks, hard to rethink that. I know it ultimately doesn't matter, as you have a perfect body in Heaven.
I also received a $4,000 bill for all the blood work since they didn't send it to the lab my insurance company uses. I find it so hard to understand how all of this has cost more money than both Kayleigh & Kayman's deliver combined! And I didn't even get to take you home!
I know that God is teaching me something to help others. Thank goodness for Him, or I might just loose it!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Dear Glory

Hi Glory,

Well it's been exactly eight weeks since your birth and death. It seems like it's been a year at least! I have cried, written, talked, researched, read, prayed, and studied the Word of God more than anytime in my life. And for that Glory I thank you for drawing me closer to our Lord and Savior. I wonder what your doing right now in heaven, probably singing beautiful songs glorifying our God!
I just purchased Chris Tomlin's Christmas Songs of Worship CD today Glory In The Highest, your Dad and I really didn't know how many times the word glory comes up. Do you know it's in the Bible 420 times! I'm glad it will always remind me of you and why we named you Glory.
Well today started my second cycle, so I imagine next month we may start trying for a brother or sister for you and your siblings. I'm still wondering if they will find another reason for your passing. I almost hope it's something that can be easily controlled by medicine, or something. If not I know it will be a challenge of my faith to rely on God's complete control, which I should always be doing.
Well today has been a difficult day for me, I miss you so much, I can't believe I would have been 27 weeks pregnant with you today. Pray for me that I will continue to glorify God. I love you, good night.